Rekindle
Have you ever thought of risk and redemption for thy? If I asked you about your risk appetite, would you quantify it?
Here’s a snippet to get on the same page: In 2010, a startup venture shop invested $250,000 in Instagram. In 2012, Facebook paid $1 billion for Instagram. The shop netted $78 million — 312x its investment.
Grand slam.
Consider this: The fund had $1.5 billion. It had capacity.
It would take nineteen $78 million payments to break even.
The proverbial light at the end of the tunnel; I often wonder if it means a lightbulb in a 6-acre stadium or the mighty sun himself.
But I learned through it; you cross a perilous frontier, and the prerogative now demands you to rethink.
Concisely, a transformation.
We don’t snub at ourselves that the world didn’t shatter, it did. It is painful to abandon a sense of security, small or big. Your shadow self will exist, rightly so. The edge of an emotional turmoil is a pivot. There is no murk here. Pain is a thread to discovery, only yours to chase.
I have been labeled ‘much and less’ at once (the adverb ‘too’ here is an exaggeration). Then I had someone qualified enough telling me that I am borderline hyper-focused. A clinical experiment proved that any treatment was unwarranted and unsparingly rejected by my body. A thread to discovery.
Focus meant it was in my taming and that I make space for every part of me & its contradiction to synchronize. In doing so, I made a profound roundup of my core abilities. I redefined my ‘fulfillment’; it’s deep work now. A good day is when I spend time immersed in work/creative outlets/relaxation.
A bad day? This label could tempt me to keep count. It’s just any other day that there are quivers. A very human thing indeed. There is something that I frequently remind myself of: Don’t order your life around not having problems.
In essence, a day. That’s all I need. I exist and I am me.
Our finite control over things pushes us into the seduction of many imaginative realities. We can’t outrun anxiety. Figuratively, certainty and security are illusions. For a relationship to be successful, it’s unreasonable to demand from our partners that we feel all the security of the future now. However a job or a marriage may unfold, we move with purpose, risk embedded, and the results, are not 100% visible at any time.
We may not be sovereign for all we endure but are nonetheless powerful to have grown out of it. My redemption lies in my risk-taking—an exuberant curiosity in the face of the unknown.
